Thursday, March 10, 2011

Cashew Nuts, Oranges & Palmwine.

Hello everyone. Hope everyone is enjoying this month of march? Well, whatever the challenge might be, there is a God and He's definitely up to something. In this month of march, my darling friend, co-blogger and mentor, Funmi Oyatogun's blog is a year old!!! It seems to me like yesterday, when the unique blog came to life. I am so happy and proud of her and her achievements within a year. with over a 100 followers and award nominations, NAKEDSHA, Has proved to be clothed with success. My story with Funmi is a funny one.Not in a "clown-funny way" but in an un-believable amazing way. Have you ever wondered what marks our time here? If  one life can really make an impact on the world? Or if the choices we make matter? Or the friends and companies that we keep? Well, i believe they do. And i believe that one man, one person, one special friend as Funmi Oyatogun, can change many lives. For better.....or for best! You know, most of our lives are a series of images, they pass us by like towns on a highway, but sometimes, a moment stuns us as it happens and we know that this moment , this instant is more than a fleeting image. We know that this moment, every part of it, will live on forever.

Cashew Nuts, Oranges & Palmwine.


Under a blanket of stars,
The moon had cast its silvery glow,
Amidst the silvery midt,
The sun had mightily shone its path,

In the darkness of reality,
You had lighted a candle of hope,
So fast it burned;
Melting all its vibrant colors & scents of misery

With your fragile words,
And the simple acts of kindness,
With the nobility of your steps,
And your passion for the world

As we watch the sunsets,
As ships docked ashore,
I felt loved.

There is a fluttering beat humming in my ears;
It whispers away the reasons for my tears

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY .NAKEDSHA

E-smiles.

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

The wind; The thunder & The Lightening

    Hello Readers. This post was NOT planned for in any way. I got on the web, and the story just came to my head and what more can a writer do? I had two things to stress; The keyboard and my eyes(being too close to the screen  makes me see ghosts literally LOL)  On a better, brighter note,My poem "DEAD WOMEN TELL NO TALES" Was featured on the Widely read Nigerian Newspaper, "THE PUNCH" yesterday (March 1st) In it the Editor, described me as "A MUSE". I must say, not all the pictures of Kim Kardashian has brought so much joy to my soul as it did. I Hope to break more boundaries, (By his Grace of cause)and improve everyday, with the comments you all drop on my blog. This short story is 100% fiction. Nothing in this, relates to my personal life in ANY way . I hope you all take time to read it & Let me know how i did as usual.. Blessings to you all. E-smiles.

The wind; The thunder & The Lightening.
                                                  By Keside Francis-Anosike
      
JULY 20TH; Temitope Peters; 8:09
        
  It was a cold November morning, the sun hid behind the clouds and i heard the sound of moving vehicles on the highway as i sat in the balcony of our 5bedroom duplex. I still had my night gown on and my hair sheltered in a hair net. my mouth was clingy; as a result of late night snacking. i had been pn the phone all night. My family already made their way to early morning mass, my mother was looking lovely in a peach and silver dotted lace and gele, and also was my sister, in a little black dress. she was the pretty one, the reason for my mishap. I couldn't stand next to her without someone comparing my paternity in their thoughts. I purposely told my mother that "my visitor" had arrived,and "he"wouldn't let me make mass, as it twitches in my stomach. She should have known by now, what time my period flows, but she is too busy, chasing after the young boys with sport cars and DMX records. She believed in painting the outside image, deep down we were broken. Three broken people living together with a perfect family picture frame, hanging in the living room, adjourned with stale cobwebs. So I lied. That was all i do.

             I went down to the kitchen, the plates from last night were still in the sink and the windows were locked,giving it a musk sting, i sat across the dinning table, facing the garden,gazing at the beautiful flowers and how the wind kissed it. It didn't need to impress anyone, the wind came looking for it. I wanted to clean up the kitchen,then listen to the local station on our old stereo while i mop and dust the living room, but i imagined Temitayo, with her perfect curls, long bold nose,straight legs, slim lips and the way the light reflected on her skin. I imagined her talking with all the boys after church as the church held its meeting. I imagined her not speaking of me; ignoring my existence because of something i didn't create. As all this images merged with one and another, i made my way back to the stairs and went to my room. I will call Ada, and we will talk again. She will tell me that she loves me and she will love to kiss me behind the school chapel as she did three times a week in school. I will giggle. I will tell her about the neighbors and how they played loud music even on a Sunday morning. Then we will hope to make it past this phase, she will assure me that nobody will ever find out about the two of us. The worries in my mind wouldn't let me breathe properly, choking the air in my lungs, and with my heart racing, with the speed of an athlete, i looked out the window, and in the wind, the thunder and the lightening i see the loneliness of the world. I couldn't suppress it; The aching of my heart and the longing of my soul to feel wanted; to feel valued. The only person that used to show me all these is no more. He left mommy on a Saturday morning,she pleaded with him to stay, and that she was ready to overlook all the wrongs he had done. she crawled to his knee, holding it tightly like a woman in child labor holding her might. He pushed her to the ground and with the wind, he flung his ring to the air. The thunder rolled as he drove off in his Mercedes; not looking back,and with the absence of the red brake light, mama screamed and curse the wind, the thunder and the lightening for bearing witness to the death of her soul. Tayo was asleep as i watched my life crumble also, with the wind my heart left, with the thunder; my life was shattered and with the lightening, i saw the last ray of light. I decided not to tell her what happened, so i lied. that's all i do. And now, 11years later, I'm looking up to the ceiling; lost in thought, and wondering How i found peace and love in a fellow girl's arm?  Nobody will have to find out about this. I will lay in with the curtains closed and no form of light, and when mama comes back, i will act as if i haven't woken up since they left. i will lie. That is all i do.


 JULY 2OTH; Temitayo Peters. 8:42am             
             
We were 20mins late for mass. Mama didn't always wake up this late,but the weather had an effect on her. Maybe she didn't hear the cock crow or she came back late as usual. I had stopped waiting up for her. She takes her own key, so sneaking in is made comfortable for her. It had become a habit, she no longer cared how this hurts us, or stopped to wonder if the men she keeps late nights with could be our teacher or a friends father. As we walked into the church,it was decorated with beautiful flowers and ribbons. I saw the same set of women, seating together every Sunday; the women who wore glittering gowns and came to church with business cards. I walked ahead of her. She greeted all her friends before she made her way to a seat, close to the right side exist. The preacher man spoke about heaven. He painted it with all the beautiful words Mrs Ejike used to adore her sons house in America. He said the streets were made of Gold and nothing was flirty. He said there was 24hours power supply and all the kids didn't get hungry. So i remembered the way Temitope thought of heaven when we were young. "It is a place daddy left mommy to go. He will make plenty money and come back for us. We will ride donkeys and horses and dress up in high heels". That was the temitope i Knew. When we were young, we did almost everything together, played with the sands, shared the same bath and defended each-other when the other was weak She is my twin. Correction; Was my twin till a certain Saturday evening, when i woke up and looked into her eyes, and knew she was gone....

         The preacher man started talking about love. He spoke nicely of the something I've never known. He said it was in the peace i didn't own and all the wonderful things of all nature's existence. The beauty voice of the nightingale and the aroma of the purple hibiscus.He described those who do not express it as wicked. So perhaps i am wicked, perhaps all that daddy did to mommy before he left made me wicked. Or was it Tope's inability to show compassion or care. Was it the numbness in her bones or the cruelty in her eyes? Maybe it was harsh words of Mrs Ejike when i failed an English class. I sighed as i looked at Jimmy. He was every girl's dream man, he had perfect teeth and he stood upright. He was tall and He walked with a swag, his hands in his pocket and moved with the grace of a village maiden dancer. He wore a tight shirt, and perfect blue jeans, the waves on his hair and the way it shone from afar as a result of perfect maintainance made my heart skip. Each time i see him,His eyes makes me fall under a curse and his body is all i thirst for. He stole a gaze, and i bent my head with the shyness of a 7year old naked boy in a female doctor's office for an appointment.  
 
   The preacher man spoke; He asked that we seek love in all areas of life, and that was the only assurance of finding peace. He asked that we forgive our husbands and our wives, that hate dries us up and asked that we shake each others hand after we conclude the service. He said "Hate is a powerful emotion, seeming to travel through the blood, infecting every inch of our body in seconds .Church was over, as everyone moved from one corner of the hall to another, staining the long red carpet on the Aile,Jimmy walked up to me, to 'shake my hand' as the Priest had instructed. My bones froze, I felt adrenaline, a rush in my veins. I wanted to shiver, my palms got itchy and i was scared that if i said one word, i will stutter. I wondered if he could hear my heart, beating as loud as an 808 drum. The wind, the thunder and the lightening whispered to me that he was a heart breaker. That he is always hungry, always looking for a heart to eat and make it bleed. But My God He also had perfect white teeth and he kept his nails neat and well trimmed. He spoke words to me with the silence of wrestling ants,  Each word was chosen with such care and every sentence was razor sharp. Every line was placed so perfectly to cause more damage to my vulnerable heart and leave my soul bleeding.  When we got to the parking lot, i gave him my number, and made way to the car to meet my mom, selling her goods to women who also wore glittering lace to church. As i walked, i turned to see if he was looking at me, and there he was, looking right back at me. I giggled.
    I sat in the car, and put the earphones into my ear, and thought about Jimmy's hand, caressing my breasts,his strong legs weakening my bones, the smell of his cologne drowning in my lungs and his tongue, discovering the bitterness that lingers in my mouth. I moaned and stressed my chin to a smile.



Friday, February 25, 2011

Between Raising Hell & Amazing Grace.

Hello everyone. Hope everyone is doing great? Fine.
            This poem is one I wrote when I thought about someone who was dear to me,She passed away years ago. I think everyone who has lost someone can relate to this. Not to indulge my personal life into this, I Hope everyone finds peace, after reading this. Time takes it all. Whether you want it or not. Time takes it all, Time bears it away and in the end, There's only darkness. Sometimes we find others in that darkness; And sometimes we lose them there again.Blessings from E-smiles.



                                              Between Raising Hell & Amazing Grace.
From the car outside, I'm walking in---
The humidity of the spring's night air enveloping me like thick fog.
It clings to me, lightly kissing my skin with its cool sweetness.
I'm walking into your resting place---
A choice I made to fill the space that's opened up inside of me,
Tearing; clawing itself right out of me,
Finding something to fill my lungs, to cease my breathe.
But somewhere between me and you.. A secret is kept.
And somehow, someway.. I feel it's never left.

There's a place we had buried our dead.
We dug hard to cover our sins, but somehow we'd still end up at their graves,
We'd reach deep down and pull them out and keep them raised for days.
They'd dance and twirl in front of our eyes,
Pulling us closer and binding us tight.
And days we would pray feverishly to put them away,
But like sirens, they'd sing to us sweetly their song,
As sure as each day will end,
We'd fall.

I believe it all happens for a reason,
And I believe that somewhere between me and you,
A secret is kept. That's all that's left.
The morning comes and we put away our dead.
We'll say a prayer and hope to God they'll rest.
The sun will rise and paint our skin with golden grace.
Giving us warning as our starry halos slowly fade away.

I breathe a sigh to know just for now, I won.
Secret's kept to death-- As I've bled all my colors, my scars are all gone.
The night disappears and with it our souls it may take,
As Heaven sleeps; it knows not what we have done.
And the sun will rise again to fade our sins away.

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

17.

Hello everyone. Trust we are all doing good in every aspect of life. Thank you for visiting my blog and i hope you make it a date. I'm great, currently working on another short story, which will be up, before the end of the week. Meanwhile, i hope you enjoy this poem. I wrote it while listening to the birds and watching the sun go down and give way for the bright autumn moon. Your thoughts on this post is very much welcomed. Have a blessed week. E-smiles.



                                                         17
Believing Promises.....

Dear Father of the glorious heaven
apologies are insufficient for what we've done;
to have taken the good in all of Your creation;
turning all those riches into rags.

For six days plus a few years more
all was good and perfect as You declared.
Then we let You down in a fit of disobedience
that has caused earth's curse to shadow the ages.

Though there are signals that beauty has not ended
there is still that shadow of darkness intruding.
We allow ourselves to be overcome in temporary joy.
We forget that all is not as it could be without sin's stain.

Yet, there are those of us Dear Father who believe You,
when You tell us that one day all will be created anew.
The beautiful things will never be stained again.
Sin will be no more. Tears will dry. Smiles will rule.

In that day only light will shine; darkness will hold no meanings.
We shall be sealed in Spirit; not fearing the lion or the bear.
Your plan will have its culmination; death will die defeated.
And those who held Your truth to heart shall be eternally comforted.

Monday, February 14, 2011

The Night Before Life Goes On.

Hello Everyone, Happy Valentine's Day to you all.

    I believe in true love. I believe in love at first sight. I believe love conquers all. and that doesn't mean there's not gonna be hard days or difficult things to deal with, because there will be. but finding that person who does it for you and knowing that person loves you back; it just makes everything so much easier. Love can be strong; we are forced to feel every emotion; both good & bad. Love. The day you start thiking that love is overated is the day you're wrong. The only thing wrong with love and faith and belief is not having them.

  This is my third short story. I hope you enjoy it. Also, I'd love to know what you thought of it. Have a wonderful holiday, and blessings to everyone. E-smiles





                       The Night Before Life Goes On.
                                                                                   keside Franics-Anosike. (Edited by NakedSha)
                                                               
"“When the lights went on and all I could see were the glaring faces of monsters and their embellished teeth, I knew that the devil had taken form in my lover’s body. I had too much to loose by screaming, so I was waiting, watching, trying to remember what was and what wasn’t.”"

It was the 12th of February 1974, it had rained heavily in the morning, leaving termites to fly all around the compound,when Ikemefuna came home, smelling like a stranger. He didn't go out with his Celica ,it had a little proble
m with the gear box. I had stayed awake after watching my favorite TV Show with my neighbor waiting for him so I wanted to be certain that if he was sleeping around he would have the decency to do it with a girl who could afford a Vera Wang wedding dress. Not like i bought mine with my money, but my elder sister's friend niece, used it during her wedding, 5 years ago. He smelled of a new soap; it was cheap. It wasn’t the Aloe Vera we used at home. So I let him enter the house as I made my way to the kitchen. That night I didn’t meet him, the devil smelled all over him so instead, I added too much salt to his meal, and he ate, while I faced the other side of the bed.

The next morning was a Saturday. As I made akara in the kitchen, ‘Funa scrubbed the living room and cleaned up his car. i didn't see the need of cleaning a car that he hasnt used for 4months, because before the end of the day, mama Ikenna's last son will inscribe 'IN NEED OF SERIOUS WATER; PLEASE WASH ME' .We hadn’t spoken since he came home last night. When all was done, I couldn’t bottle up my emotions. I was mad and it had to be now.

“You good for nothing pig” you come home at midnight, smelling like a whore you picked at the market bus-stop and you have not a word to utter from the same mouth you used to kiss her. Tell me. How was her makeup? Did she wear a red lipstick? Was it pink? Or nude? Or she couldn’t afford any. Tell me now Ikemefuna Okafor before the neighbors come out to separate us.”

“What in the name of the devil are you talking about?” He replied with a raised eyebrow. I already had my hand on his collar as he tried to calm me down. He went further to explain how he walked all day and on his way back, he stopped at the chemist at Okigwe Road to get me a valentine gift. He said he had been out picking a fragrance for me and that was why he smelled the way he did. He wanted to surprise me. He bought it for 4Naira. I was wowed. I knew better not to believe a man who came home late at night with a different smell, but ‘Funa had saved his money to get me this fragrance. He had to walk back home on foot. It was perfect. It was the most romantic thing he has ever done since he un-hooked my bra on our wedding night.

It was the morning. The sweetest aroma embraced the air; the birds chiming, syncing, and rhyming. The radio stations couldn’t stop saying it. The young boys on our streets already washed their clothes a day before, the bachelors cleaned up their cars and married woman smiled as they went to the market. The bucket I left outside caught lots of termite. I paid little attention to it for I thought about the day ahead. ‘Funa did nothing; he played slow sweet music of the legendary Michael Bolton. He kissed me as I woke up, his eyes piercing, discovering the loneliness in my eyes. It was the first time he has kissed me before I had brushed my teeth. I kissed him also, but it was quick, as I had to line up to fetch water from the public bore-hole. It was Valentine’s day. The 14th of February 1974. The last morning I saw ‘Funa. The last morning I kissed him. And it was a goodbye kiss on Valentine’s day. The morning before life goes on.



“He said : "Remember tonight, for it is the beginning of always. A promise, like a reward for persisting through life so long alone. Belief in each other and the possibility of eternal love. A decision to ignore simply rise above the pain in the past. A covenant, which at once binds two souls and yet severs prior ties. The celebration of the chance taken and the challenge that lies ahead. For two will always be stronger than one. Like a team braced against the tempest of the world. And love will always be the guiding forces in our lives. For tonight is mere formality. Only an announcement to the world of feelings long held. Promises made long ago in the sacred spaces in our hearts”



The road leading to town was busy. Buses parking in the middle of the road to pick customers, traders selling heart shaped teddy bears on the sidewalks.One could hear the sound of flies buzzing from the meat market as people bargained to get fare prices. It was the day I wore the red dress. It was his favorite dress; I had worn it the day we met. I wore it for him one more time to spark the magic. I knew I looked fantastic, no lipstick, just as he liked it, and his mother’s ring. Pretending we were Romeo and Juliet. But the one thing I wouldn’t be able to pretend about is our final fight. His fears of letting me go; the people can barely see the marks his fingers left on my neck; holding me, loving me.


"I feel like.......I'm moving in slow motion. Like I'm moving in slow motion and everything around me is moving so fast and I just want to go back....to when things were normal. When I wasn't the poor widow who murdered her husband. But I am; so I can't. And I'm Just stuck. And there's all this pressure cause everyone is hovering around me, waiting for me to do something or say something or flip out or yell or cry some more.....but i don't know how to do this. I don't know how to be this person. I don't know who this person is."


     “I will like to take your orders, Oga
The waiter at the Imo Concorde Hotel said. He wore a red bow tie. I wandered if he had a valentine. Or if he was cursing the stones because he had to work on such a lovely day. I also noticed that he had funa's check bones. Strong and proud.
  “Oh yes, I will have rice & salad”  I replied, as my jaw almost dropped while ‘Funa squeezed my hand. His touch warm, but like ice; sending shivers up my arm. I couldn’t believe I could be on earth, but have an angel sit across me.
        Funa didn’t place an order. He said he’d watch me eat.
But knowing funa and his appetite, I figured that he couldn’t afford lunch for two at this exquisite hotel, so he wanted only me to eat. I looked over to the table by our right and i saw this very pretty young ladies, in her 20's accept to an old eye-burgling man's proposal. He was too old he couldn't stand up to kiss her hand, as funa did. Then Ikemefuna kissed my left hand,as if to draw my attention to his beautiful gaze. It was beautiful.


"“Help! Help! We need help here. My wife is still breathing.” Help! Smoke filled the whole room, children and mothers lay burnt like waste products at Uratta housing estate. It was the last thing I remember, the lights going out and noises rising from different sections of the hotel. I couldn’t see red. I saw black burnt bodies in blur vision. ‘Funa was holding my neck, for some reason, trying to get people to come to my aid. His strong palms gave me a scar.”"


The fire started from the kitchen, it spread right through the lounge and into the restaurant I saw the old eye-bulging man leave his lover to run for his dear life. A mother tripped as she tried to make way for her 5kids to flee from their table. I couldn’t see the fire on time, but I saw blood. Noise was everywhere. I was caught up in the conversation with funa. He told me sweet little stories of mermaids and cartoons. He told me about playing hide and seek in his village while growing up. Then the fire reached the table close to us. It was spreading. I became hot.
 
""The Imo Concorde hotel was set ablaze by unknown people. It claimed the lives of 267people, with only 3 survivors. The fire lasted for about 45minutes before it was put out, one lady who survived was found under her husband’s body. Rumor has it that the man lay on top of her to shield her from the fire. Nothing has been said about compensating the victims. Barrister Emeka Chidubem survived as well as Mrs Igwe and the lady saved by love…Mrs Paulina Ikemefuna-…….”"


The radio stations couldn’t stop saying it, the women on the streets couldn’t stop gossiping, and the lovers in my town couldn’t stop whispering. It was the most tragic thing in the history of love in my town.
             I couldn’t stand hearing the presenter complete the name. My husband is dead. He died before he could watch the sunset with me. Before he could teach our un-born baby how to hunt and wrestle. I was finally at home, staring at the bottle of fragrance ‘Funa bought for me, it has only been 24 hours and I’ve walked through the hottest part of hell and back, I made my way through the door, and headed out. I walked 3hrs, 279kl. It was cold. The rain poured heavily, as if to mean that ‘Funa has been received by the Angels. The Angels of love. When I got to the supermarket, I handed the perfume over to the shop assistant. She spoke under her breath, something in Igbo. She was from Anambra so I couldn’t pick so much out of what she said, but I was sure she was talking about me. Suddenly, I had become more famous than Zik within a period of a woman's child labour. I didn’t give her a second look. She was smiling like a baby born at the General Hospital where only the rich go to; wearing a red dress with a black hat. I wandered if her boyfriend took her out. I was jealous. Jealous of the smile across her face, Jealous of the fact that Funa paid too much concentration on this day. Jealous that her red dress had more glitters than mine. It wasn’t all so much in the end. I returned the un-used perfume ‘Funa gave me and stormed out. I spent the night before life goes on, walking home in the rain to an empty room, an empty bed, trying to remember our last kiss; while singing the sweet songs of the legendary Michael Bolton.


Thursday, February 3, 2011

2,000 Ghosts.

2,000 Ghosts” is a free verse. I know some stanza’s aren’t very realistic, but isn’t it the point? A place hidden in your dreams, where no one hurts, and everyone loves without inhibition? A place where no matter who you are, you are still lovely and accepted? Enjoy! Don't forget to leave a comment and also follow on twitter. Bless, ES.



                                                   “2,000 GHOSTS”

                                                       

My town is small,
Our mothers know each other’s market stalk,
We drink our fathers palm wine together.

My town is quiet.
Its a place where two thousand ghosts lay,
And yet it trembles at the wrestle of warriors.
 
My town has so many locks; So many keys
To unlock the doors
Filled with mysteries.

Mosaic arches paint the sky with rainbows,
The sun glittering off;
Fragmented pieces of crystal,
Embedded in the streets.

Buildings of every size and colour,
With plants growing from every nook and cranny.
Cascades of ivy,
And roses growing up doorways,
Filling our heads with thoughts,
Thoughts of beauty and peace.

No cars can drive here,
But bicycles litter the various paths,
Unlocked, for there is no crime.

Fountains and outdoor showers,
Private spaces, with cloth curtains,
Beds of pillows, and too many blankets.

People unafraid to hang their laundry,
Out their windows,
To be dried between alleys,
Colourful flags of contentment.

A library in the centre,
Sprawling, and over full.
The doors between the painted pillars
Never locked,
Because learning is always encouraged.

My Town is a place where natural beauty is embraced,
And children are always safe.
A place where even the grown-ups;
Still believe;
In magic.

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Autopsy Of The Devil's Brain.



Hello beautiful people.

       This is the 3rd installment of the poems (The Master Of His Death, Until We Are Ghosts) .
So what happens when the dead husband keeps tormenting his wife (The woman who burnt him alive on purpose?) He loved her. He really did, but he couldn’t stop abusing her. He hit her once,then it went on and on. She had to kill him. She didn’t feel safe. She burnt him alive. She wanted him to know how he’s made her feel. So now he’s dead, and he wouldn’t let her be. What then happens? How will she get an Autopsy of the Devil’s Brain? Don't forget to follow me on Twitter to get Instant alerts on new post!! Enjoy.



                                        AUTOPSY OF THE DEVIL'S BRAIN.

I’m trying to sleep, won’t you leave me alone?

I can feel the cold chill from your aged, rotting bones.

The sensation smothers me and I open my eyes, to glare at you, whom I despise.

From the dresser I grab a glinting blade.

My eyes downcast, like the battered old shades.

The candlelight flickers and floorboards groan.

Why can’t the dead leave the living alone?

You stare at me with gaping eye sockets, one tooth wiggling in dismay.

You won’t leave and you’re too dead for mortal pain.

So I’ll hurt myself.

I drag the blade across my already scarred wrist.

Crimson blood rises like sunset’s kiss on the waves.

Your dry skin bags together as you cringe, scooting away.

Another laceration and I don’t even flinch.

But your bloodcurdling screams are louder than hell’s demons.

My pain doesn’t feel so good, yet it doth amuse you
 
Touche, dead soul, checkmate!
 
As you fall from the window, escaping frantically

My blood still falls, staining the bedsheets

Upon it I lay, closing weary eyes

Having rid myself of all I despise.