Friday, September 23, 2011


How is everyone doing today? Its the weekend and I hope everyone plans to take a rest and enjoy it.
 Have a good weekend everyone ! Do you ever feel someone is watching you? Or somewhere, somehow, you're never alone? It exceeds hallucination and fear. Sometimes its real. Sometimes you are the one, moving closer to it...embracing it..Enjoy the Poem.


She visits me at night
While no one is around
When the party is over
When alcohol ceases to be numbing...

When I feel the most fragile
She puts her arms around me
When I feel the most alone
She promises to make everything better...

Her beauty is exotic
Her voice is angelic
Her lips are intoxicating
Her legs chained to an 18inch stilettos heel

From a place far far away
I know she is not of this mortal world...

Seduced by the mystery in her eyes
She smiles at me like a flower blossoms in the spring breeze
She laces her finger on my lips and tells me to just go with her...

Whispering in my ear...
That she can take all the pain away

Tempted to take her hand
Taking a leap into her world
I stare outside the window
Where she wants me to go

There is darkness
There is her voice
Most comforting voice...

Come with me
Your soul shall burn no more
Come with me
Into a world of darkness, silence and peace

No more pain...
No more tears...
No more turmoils...

Only the perpetual darkness of the night
Only the weight of dirt
Burying the rotting corpse of my soul

She whispers in my ear
Just come with me...

How can I keep on resisting?
Why should I always be sad?
Night after night...
Day after day...
Year after year...

She comes again at night
I ask where she comes from
She smiles and says
I come from the darkest,
deepest part of your heart
I have always been here within you...

Song Beneath A Song. 

1, The Stable Song- Gregory Alan Isakov
This is the kind of song that comes up on Pandora(Or wherever you crawl to for music) and you just stop everything you're doing because you have goosebumps. And so you sit and listen, eyes closed, totally uninterrupted until the last note is finished.

Monday, September 19, 2011

The Man Who Sailed Round His Soul.

Hello Guys. Happy Birthday to ME!!

I'm very grateful to God almighty for such a rare privilege to have another year added to my life today. I think Life is so precious; yet fragile and delicate that we have to celebrate everyday; every given moment as it comes. Generally, I believe birthday's are over rated; not that I don't feel the need to acknowledge it, but I tend to believe people throw things out of proportion on days like this. This was my first birthday without my siblings, Heck it wasn't the same. We usually spend the day at home, lounging and basically eating everything we could lay our hands on. Then we played "remember whens" on every birthdays. Amidst chuckles and disapproving glares over embarrassing "whens", We try to bask in the euphoria of aging by reminiscing on moments that took our breath away. I didn't get to play "remember whens" today. It didn't feel good but I've accepted that it all comes with growing up. Nonetheless, I spoke to everyone and never has there been a barrier to exist among us, even over the phone.

Thank you to everyone who called, sent texts, Posted on Facebook, Tweeted @ me. Even the kind words in mails. I tried my best to return every message I got and truly, I am overwhelmed with everyone's kindness. I'm thankful to God for the support system that I have.

If there is something that I've learned, its the ironic complexity of life. The evolution of love, death and learning to breathe even when alive. The simple things eventually turn out to be what we are accounted for. How many times someone's heart gladdened after you spoke to them? How much effort you put into doing things that necessarily not your responsibility? I love smiling at random people. Some of them smile back. Some of them get really creeped out, but that makes it worth it. Each day we get up; with each glimpse of sunlight that ignites with our face; we are given an opportunity to make things right, to move faster to our goals, to be kind and chip out a word of encouragement to someone struggling. We are healed to continue healing others.

I've decided to share a bunch of random knowledge on this post. Here they are:

I've learned that we don't have to change friends,If we understand that friends change.

I've learned that something that you do in an instant, can give you heartache for life
I've learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words, it may be that last time you see them.

I've learned that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.

I've learned that either you control your attitude, or it controls you

I've learned that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you are down, will be the one who helps you get up.

I've learned that sometimes when i am angry i have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them too, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

I've learned that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you learned from them, and less to do with how many years you have lived.

I've learned that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others, but sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I've learned that just because two people argue, doesn't mean they don't love each other. And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do love each other.

I've learned that you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret, it may change you life forever.

I've learned that sometimes the people that you love most in life, are taken from you too soon.

I've learned that you can't make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved, and the rest is up to them.

I've learned that no matter how much i care, some people just don't care back.

I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and just seconds to destroy it.

I've learned that it's not what you have in life, but who you have that counts.

I've learned that you can keep going, long after you think you can't.

I've learned that their are people who love you dearly, but just don't know how to show it.

I've learned that even when you feel you have no more to give, a friend cries out and you find the strength to help.

I've learned that our backgrounds and circumstances may have influenced our lives, but we are responsible for who we become.

I've learned that it is better to deal with your crap as it comes. Sweep things under the rug for so long till it becomes a lumpy rug and then a Tripping hazard. 

I've learned that people make mistakes... But if they're willing to put the past behind them, then maybe we should to.

We're only here for awhile. Yes, things are messed up. But since we ARE here, we need to transcend the darkness and make a meaningful, positive impact while we can.

There is no person in this world who is made to handle every punch that's thrown at them. In fact, we're made to get mad, upset, sad, hurt, stumble and fall. We aren't supposed to be able to handle everything. But that's what makes us stronger in the end; learning from the things that hurt us the most.

1, Julia Stone- My Baby.

2, Florence & The Machine- Shake It Out.

My soul is officially at peace with everything wrong with this world. For Today....

Friday, September 16, 2011

A Whisper In A Riot.

Hello everyone. How is everyone doing, great? Good.

     I'm deeply saddened by the recent Boko Haram saga that has taken the peace of mind of so many people. How can we just sit here and let it happen? Why doesn't such senseless violence and death make our blood boil? What is wrong with us? Can we really find peace one day? After the horrible things we've done to each other? I can't help thinking about it and as I'm awake now; I feel such a weird sensation in my belly. It makes me sick of how much we have to gain; being jeopardize because of some people who won't rest till they send everyone back to live in the 80s (or whatever.). I'm just worried about pregnant woman, little naive kids, bread winners. All these people shouldn't be dead for no reason. I indulge everyone to say a word of prayer each day for this country. Yes, it may not be everything there is to getting out of the raging meaningless storm; it may be more good or less than a whisper in the heat of a riot; but it is something. I f you're a strict beliver; you'd realise that we walk faster sometimes while our knees are on the ground; than standing to point fingers.

With ALL the cynical expressions botox is yet to offer; I make this statement. "Goodluck needs to get his s!!t together; that's enough spar treatment. Get to work."

Have a nice weekend everyone; My birthday is on Monday!! Woot!!

A Whisper In A Riot.

Under the scorching sun
The land dries up
Mother nature cries in pain
Famine is upon us all
The orphan’s body withers

Under the same scorching sun
The sky turns red
Blood all over dried up soil
Killing and raping of land and people
The beauty and goodness of life turns ugly
The orphan’s humanity dies

Under the same scorching sun
The air turns ice cold
Indifference freezes the land
Medusa’s face of greed breathes life
Into the most unspeakable part of humans
Forsaken by God and abandoned by our own conscience
Quietly watching our brothers suffer;
Without a whisper in the riot;
The orphan’s heart hardens

Song Beneath A Song.*The song I'm sharing today goes well with this post. Try and listen.

1, Walk- Foo Fighters.
When I first heard this, to me it sounded like a cry for the world over to start again, after we've successfully screwed it up with talks of depression, war, paranoia etc. This song could have a deep meaning as a cry for the world to go back to the way it was. Also, it could be interpreted to be about falling down and getting back up again. The paper mountains could symbolize anything - goals, relationships, maybe even beliefs that were destroyed. But you can't let that destroy you, get your butt up and move on because life is short and there are plenty of other paths you can take.